Post by earthmonkey on Sept 5, 2008 22:31:59 GMT -5
I had a meltdown today when my mom got home late to take me to the neurologist, then we got to there by 5:00 just barely, went to the office except it was all closed down, so my mom checked up on the appointment time and it was for September 3, not 5, like I told her.
See, when she first scheduled it, she told me it was September 3, a Tuesday, at 5:00 pm. Then, on Monday I asked her what time the appointment it was, and she said the 5, Friday at 5:00 p.m. I asked really?" Because I thought you said the third" an dshe said "No, it's the fith."
And for me to prepare for a doctor's appointment so that I'll be able to even talk or answer questions or anything (particularly as my alphasmart is currently out of commision), so they can't get me a new appointment until I'm in Washington (and apparently they won't let me to an appointment in LA County, which sucks since we live pretty near LA County, and the only way to get an appointment beforehand is if my mom calls in every single day to see if someone cancelled. They said that it'd be pretty likely for this to happen.
However, that means I'll have to be ready to go at any day, with little notice. And if I wait until I'm up in Washington, the appointment day was after my parents wouldn't be there anymore, and I've never gone to a doctor's appointment on my own before (today I even forgot both my medical card and my ID, as usual). That's something I should do when my parents are still up there - take a bus to the place that I would go for doctor's appointments, just to see what it looks like and time how long it gets there so I don't miss the stop and get familiar with the route.
So anyway. I am pretty worn, and then today while watching Frasier it was the episode where he leaves Seattle and is saying goodby to his family and friends and I started gushing with tears. I usually am pretty quiet about my emotions, but when I am alone especially can be quite powerful. I also had started crying a bit in the car on the way home at singing one song about departure. But I just teared up a bit then and got myself back to usual.
My mom always makes these kinds of mistakes with appointments, though, and remarkably enough is one of the few people worse with appointments than I am that I have met. I don't know what kind of strategies could work for her, as she does this even when righting it down as the appointment is made.
Just...everything was starting to work out, the special ed. co-ordinator put my dad in contact with the principal to set up an appointment with the autism specialists (still unknown status), and then this. The worst part of it, is that when it comes to a disagreement of fact between me and my mom, I am usually right, but for some reason with people who are authority figures, I am extremely reluctant to question them at all. And then I have to sit back and watch everything blow up. It's like when I have an aura for a seizure but can't communicate it to anyone, or when you see that someone's about to trip on something, but you don't get the words out, and you watch them trip.
See, when she first scheduled it, she told me it was September 3, a Tuesday, at 5:00 pm. Then, on Monday I asked her what time the appointment it was, and she said the 5, Friday at 5:00 p.m. I asked really?" Because I thought you said the third" an dshe said "No, it's the fith."
And for me to prepare for a doctor's appointment so that I'll be able to even talk or answer questions or anything (particularly as my alphasmart is currently out of commision), so they can't get me a new appointment until I'm in Washington (and apparently they won't let me to an appointment in LA County, which sucks since we live pretty near LA County, and the only way to get an appointment beforehand is if my mom calls in every single day to see if someone cancelled. They said that it'd be pretty likely for this to happen.
However, that means I'll have to be ready to go at any day, with little notice. And if I wait until I'm up in Washington, the appointment day was after my parents wouldn't be there anymore, and I've never gone to a doctor's appointment on my own before (today I even forgot both my medical card and my ID, as usual). That's something I should do when my parents are still up there - take a bus to the place that I would go for doctor's appointments, just to see what it looks like and time how long it gets there so I don't miss the stop and get familiar with the route.
So anyway. I am pretty worn, and then today while watching Frasier it was the episode where he leaves Seattle and is saying goodby to his family and friends and I started gushing with tears. I usually am pretty quiet about my emotions, but when I am alone especially can be quite powerful. I also had started crying a bit in the car on the way home at singing one song about departure. But I just teared up a bit then and got myself back to usual.
My mom always makes these kinds of mistakes with appointments, though, and remarkably enough is one of the few people worse with appointments than I am that I have met. I don't know what kind of strategies could work for her, as she does this even when righting it down as the appointment is made.
Just...everything was starting to work out, the special ed. co-ordinator put my dad in contact with the principal to set up an appointment with the autism specialists (still unknown status), and then this. The worst part of it, is that when it comes to a disagreement of fact between me and my mom, I am usually right, but for some reason with people who are authority figures, I am extremely reluctant to question them at all. And then I have to sit back and watch everything blow up. It's like when I have an aura for a seizure but can't communicate it to anyone, or when you see that someone's about to trip on something, but you don't get the words out, and you watch them trip.
